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Split
01:58
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How far will you go?
Do you doubt your aspirations?
You’ve been split into pieces;
How many are there?
Two exact halves?
As many cells as there are in your body?
Somewhere between eight and twenty, all uneven fragments?
Five, one for each sense?
Three like nesting dolls, each piece a distinct layer?
It’s hard to tell
Even when they’re separated they still feel connected somehow
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Vacuum
04:37
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When I look out across the water
At the churning and unrest
With eyes that reach like outstretched hands
I feel the vacuum in my chest
How I wish to ask you now
Throughout all these gaps in time
If the memories of this place have ever crossed your mind
In the place I used to keep your love
The vacuum grew as time elapsed
And the air thickened with smoke
I tried not to let my lungs collapse
How I wish to ask you now
Throughout all these years untied
If you’ve ever noticed how this all played to our demise
I think that all the time
And I meant to ask you
Did you suffocate, my love?
No one ever comes back here once they’ve hung around too long
When all their favourite things turn to ashes on their tongue
Overwhelming difference
Waves that fall in from above
From the black hole that tugs at the heels of every kind of love
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Swing Set
00:37
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4. |
WWWWW
03:39
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Let me in
Let me in
Let me in
Let me in
I want to see you lower down
Home among the plastic crowns
I want to see you lower down
All fragmented and unbound
I want to see you lower down
Hollow bones not so highbrow now
I want to see you lower down
Averting your gaze while I’m around
So let me in
Let me in
Let me in
Let me in
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5. |
Regular Mind
02:34
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I’m paying for it
I can’t ignore it
No longer dreaming
Of something more
I made my choices
I am the voices
I hear them screaming
My throat is sore
Pressure
Self-inflicted damage
I can’t afford to heal
Don’t look beneath the bandage
You don’t want that reveal
I must stay open, bleeding
I’m peeling back the scab
Stability receding
With one thing left to grab;
I need those honoured numbers
That represent success
I need them to make sense of
All the boredom and distress
Please quantify my merit
And tell me what it’s worth
To slit my throat and hit the ground
And complete your make-work
Behind your eyes
A regular mind
Won’t show you mine
Better to hide
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6. |
Manifest
02:18
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I know why you worry
We watch them pass
Hundreds of latex hands tied to
Professional insomniacs
They march through the waiting room
All shrugs and bagged eyes
I fall asleep sitting up
And wake to the sunrise
She keeps me company
Through the target mark
But her powers can’t reverse the poison once it starts
My soul is a balloon
Half Light I plays on a loop
I’m taken somewhere bright and far away
Scheduled for a new set of scars today
Test the limits of my perception
Feel the pain of true disconnection
I’ve been misjudged so gravely
I don’t think they’re going to save me
I struggle to wake
But when I do
I have meaning
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7. |
Reset
05:13
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The violence of the month of march
Tearing up the loathed and loved at once
I welcome it with open arms
At home in the carnage
It feels different now
Purpose delivered with my undoing
We oppose each other in fate
Protection at the base
I long to haunt the world
Or fall into its fabric
Does my ghost resent the vessel for returning from the brink?
The memory of a butterfly
Disassembled yet maintained
Events with a line to cross
Am I on the other side?
Denial is a hopeful lie
Colours change and break it down
Containers within containers
Green is the world
We drive by and watch
The weight of ice crack even the strongest trees in half
And we know it
I’ll be back again, back again
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
Everything has changed
In the back of my mind I know its the same
Necessity is not the one requirement for change
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8. |
Stalker
01:31
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Lay me down in a shallow pool
That corrodes with time
A resting place for wicked things
A purifying grave
The porous lining of the tunnel body
Lets the light shine through
Industrial intestinal tract
This place might digest us both
But I let you go in first
In hopes that I could bear witness
Welcome home, darling
Don’t forget
You can never leave the same way you came in
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9. |
Commercial Break
04:05
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She might be bioluminescent, the boundaries of her skin are blurred
I notice but don’t ask about it, I’m more polite with thoughts unheard
She asks if I would be so kind to let her do my hair in her room
A practice run for a later date, a strange request I don’t refuse
So many times I felt the ether while behind repurposed walls
They might have been haunted or imbued with heavy poisons set to dissolve
What held my interest in the interim between imaging and receipts
Was how that place could slowly make its way into your identity
The veil is thin
The lights are dim
No longer white hot in the eyes
Commercial break
A liminal space
The threat has been neutralized
It doesn’t last
It’s quickly passed
And all relight the spark
To greet the intruders
Appease the colluders
And try to get home before dark
But I long
For moments
Like those fishtail braids
Many years removed from then
But they were made off limits
Tucked away in glass cabinets
Still visible but just out of reach
(Give me) Fodder for more anecdotes so we can close the gap
(You can) Show me all the qualities that you keep under wraps
While we’re here behind the curtain let’s not play pretend
Let’s unveil unspoken dreams right up until the end
(She’s all) Smiles and cold fingertips, precise and gentle touch
(With a) A mind that’s sharp and practical but yearning for so much
Why does she accept all of the chaos that I bring?
When I look back it feels like my heart breaks for anything
But I long
For moments
Like those fishtail braids
Many years removed from then
But they were made off limits
Tucked away in glass cabinets
Still visible but just out of reach
But I long
For moments
Like those fishtail braids
Many years removed from then
But they were made off limits
Tucked away in glass cabinets
Still visible but just out of reach
(Doctors
White rooms
I’m so
Consumed
We’re here
Past two
In our
Costumes)
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10. |
My Favourite Game
03:43
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Inhibition leaves me with such ease when I’m with you
But please don’t mistake this mellow chaos for the truth
The person you imagine me to be is not the same
As the mask I wear that serves me well to play my favourite game
I’m so easy going if you get me in the mood
But I’ll observe the trends and tactics while I’m pursued
I like to see how far they go with no more than a poke
And I hope that they don’t take offense if they realize it’s a joke
Inhibition leaves me with such ease when I’m with you
But please don’t mistake this mellow chaos for the truth
The person you imagine me to be is not the same
As the mask I wear that serves me well to play my favourite game
You’ve got so much going for you, a simple way to escape
But the truth of you is much more bitter and leaves an aftertaste
A hefty price is paid for trying to forget all that I’ve wrought
And this game of mine might be a bit more dangerous than I had thought
Inhibition leaves me with such ease when I’m with you
But please don’t mistake this mellow chaos for the truth
The person you imagine me to be is not the same
As the mask I wear that serves me well to play my favourite game
Hungover
All of this leftover
Bullshit from another time
Balance isn’t on my side
I’m dying
My body is unwinding
Why do I feel this relief
Slowly corrupted by grief
I wish I were an island
I wish I were alone
Being seen is overwhelming
I reject being known
I wish I could erase you
I wish I didn’t act
Exposure of the vulnerable
Not worth it to distract
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11. |
Neurogenesis
02:07
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I can feel it cracking
I know you see it too
Don’t look away from this
I want you to watch
See what happens when you try to do what I do
My mind is splitting
My mind is splitting open
Do you want to see inside?
Are you ready to see?
Are you ready?
I don’t have a choice
No one has a choice but to sit back and watch
You can see it
Falling on the pavement
Baking in the sun
Do I look okay?
Do I seem fine?
You don’t know violence like I do
You don’t know
You don’t know
You never fucking know
What to do what to say how to act
What to do what to say how to act
But I can show you if you look very carefully, very closely
Very carefully, very closely
Very carefully, very closely
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on
Come on, you know you want to try it
Everybody wants to try it
Everybody wants to try it and see how it is
Everybody wants to try it out one time
Everybody wants to try it at least one time
Just to see what it feels like
I hate you
I hate you so much
Don’t fucking look at me
Don’t fucking look at me
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12. |
Centipede
04:16
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The sight of my blood doesn’t scare me anymore
Not since all the times I’ve watched it drip along the floor
It seems you do not feel the need to mask your true intent
Fragile egos, muscled frames, so easily ferment
This world is a carnivore with teeth and senses honed
I can show you how it feels when they sink into your bones
I’ve heard you say it’s useful, the pain it leaves behind
Your screaming makes me wonder if you’ve changed your mind
Hear, hear!
I think your flesh would look good in between my teeth
I see the murder in your smile
But I’m familiar with your type of violence
You there!
What do you dream about taking away from me?
I imagine it’s pride you seek to break
How sweet and unsurprising
I’ve died a thousand ways, a thousand times
Let’s put some novelty back into demise
You don’t seem to notice the danger that you’re in
But soon enough you’ll hear the bell that signifies my win (You’ll know you’ve lost)
Allow me to devour you and place your life in mine (It’s coming now)
I’ll be sure to let you feel it while I take my time (You’ll feel it all)
You can turn malignant if your soul remains intact (Let’s see you try)
If you’re bold enough to think that you can make an impact
Hear, hear!
I think your flesh would look good in between my teeth
I see the murder in your smile
But I’m familiar with your type of violence
You there!
What do you dream about taking away from me?
I imagine it’s pride you seek to break
How sweet and unsurprising
So predictable it’s almost amusing (I eat you)
A lack of awareness so profound (You eat me)
You confuse me with prey here (We fall apart)
An error that will see you unwound (It’s going down)
You assume your weapons work but (Don’t look away)
I’m a witch and it’s my turn (This is my time)
Your arsenal is nullified now (I’ve got your number)
You can’t destroy what can’t be burned (Your life is mine)
Hear, hear!
I think your flesh would look good in between my teeth
I see the murder in your smile
But I’m familiar with your type of violence
You there!
What do you dream about taking away from me?
I imagine it’s pride you seek to break
How sweet and unsurprising
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Hide
02:58
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Run
While you can
Cos you won’t get another chance if they find you again
Caught
Spiral down
Broken bones rerun the splitting tracks beneath the ground
Where’s your god?
Dead and gone
Encased and preserved with its core dissolved
False relief
Holds your belief
With gore and hope from this motif
Held aloft
Salvation lost
Your pride is not the only cost
My faith is bruised
My will refused
And to the end this body used
Can you help me?
Can you give this pain some meaning?
Can you save me?
Do you feel what I’m feeling?
You’re so sick
I feel it
Permeate
It’s innate
A cursed site
My birth right
It decays
I remain
Run
While you can
Cos you won’t get another chance if they find you again
Caught
Spiral down
Broken bones rerun the splitting tracks beneath the ground
Run
Run
Run
Run
Hide
Hide
Hide
Hide
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14. |
Performance Anxiety
04:04
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All the windows are made of eyes
Phantom voyeurs customized
How can I hide when I’m never alone
And all these fears have overgrown
Hit me hard
I want to feel the living stars under my skin
Supernova of reactive cells
Diluted signals
Cameras with silent shutters
Invisible bodies remain
Unfound and tucked away
I’m so tired of the noise
It’s loud today
Sometimes my hips click
And make plastic sounds
Like barbies with bald heads and blacked out eyes
Their inanimate souls immortalized
When I’m on my own I feel the audience swarm
But it doesn’t matter
No, I love to perform
I’ll put on a good show for
Fourth dimensional viewing
Life in circular patterns
Carved into my mind
I am Amnesiac
Paranoid and loud
Glass walls reverberating with
Undifferentiated sound
Digital blow out in tangible moments
I am framed in thirds
Feel my soul disintegrate on these sepia nights
My eyes feel unsure of themselves when they look at the stars
The violent twinkling artifacts of a time I can’t recall
When I’m on my own I feel the audience swarm
But it doesn’t matter
No, I love to perform
I’ll put on a good show for
Fourth dimensional viewing
Life in circular patterns
Carved into my mind
They’re looking in
They’re looking in
They’re looking in
They’re looking in
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15. |
Psychrophile
03:41
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A somber month
Muted by fog
With quiet death shielding dormant life
A dignified
And silent time
Induces temporary afterlife
Greyscale landscape
Ever-changing scenes
Bear witness to the transformations underneath
At first it’s subtle
But can never be denied
The carcass stays equipped with teeth long after it dies
I’m sinking into the ground
The roots are pulling me down
Just like I’d hoped they would do
Everything falls into place
This body will be erased
And someday reborn anew
I suit the month of my birth
With secrets kept to unearth
A psychrophile brought to light
The winter comes on so slow
And lengthens all our shadows
Prepare yourself for it’s bite
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